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Re: That's OK
Posted by Searching... on July 3, 2009 at 20:15:31

In reply to: Re: That's OK* posted by alegreme on July 3, 2009 at 15:21:48*

Thank You so much... (as always!!!)
I am doing okay still which feels good.
He is still contacting me everyday but lately I feel the need to just be silent.
I have not spoken to him or seen him since the early hours of Tuesday morning when he left here.
He tried contacting me Tuesday evening a few times.
He tried contacting me on Wed. a couple of times, brought me a gift & left it at my door, & also some messages.
He sent me an email last night.
I worked with him all day today but we maintained our professionalism & no personal talk at all.
I have a feeling he will try calling me this evening & if he doesn't get me on the phone he will just come over.
However, I have to just be silent & still.
I know now that no matter what is said or done nothing is going to change & I also accept that I cannot change what I want or need so what is the point.
Like I said it truly saddens me but I am okay with it.
No more tears, no desperation... just a quiet sadness within my heart.
There is no use though in going round & round anymore.
So, I will accept this as it is & I know that if anything were to ever change my heart will still hold a special place for him but I will not hold my breath waiting for it to happen.
I will just keep living my life & I know in my heart that whatever is meant to be will just be...
That's all...
I hope you all have a great weekend!!!
Thank you from the very very bottom of my heart...

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> Thank You so much... (as always!!!) > I am doing okay still which feels good. > He is still contacting me everyday but lately I feel the need to just be silent. > I have not spoken to him or seen him since the early hours of Tuesday morning when he left here. > He tried contacting me Tuesday evening a few times. > He tried contacting me on Wed. a couple of times, brought me a gift & left it at my door, & also some messages. > He sent me an email last night. > I worked with him all day today but we maintained our professionalism & no personal talk at all. > I have a feeling he will try calling me this evening & if he doesn't get me on the phone he will just come over. > However, I have to just be silent & still. > I know now that no matter what is said or done nothing is going to change & I also accept that I cannot change what I want or need so what is the point. > Like I said it truly saddens me but I am okay with it. > No more tears, no desperation... just a quiet sadness within my heart. > There is no use though in going round & round anymore. > So, I will accept this as it is & I know that if anything were to ever change my heart will still hold a special place for him but I will not hold my breath waiting for it to happen. > I will just keep living my life & I know in my heart that whatever is meant to be will just be... > That's all... > I hope you all have a great weekend!!! > Thank you from the very very bottom of my heart...