should I make him feel good on MY day? ()

should I make him feel good on MY day?
Posted by nita on March 11, 2010 at 19:55:10

Last night MM called me (it was already thursday his time)
to wish me a happy birthday. I didn't answer his call because..
I just didn't feel up to talking w/ him. I listened to his voicemail, which was nice. Half an hour later he txtd happy bday
also. I wasn't going to reply, but out of just being human I said thank you. Half an hour later he calls. 3 times in a row.
I couldn't answer. I REALLY wanted to. So while his ringtone was going off one after another, I was crying my eyes out because this situation sucks. Wanted to answer so bad but at the same time I knew after we hung up I'd feel like sh*t.
Half an hour later I get a text
hey says " I know you hate me, I undrstand but I just wanted to be the first to tell you happy bday, but it's fine, you're having a goodtime with your friends, thanks for making me sad"
I still have not responded. I was ready to do so this morning. but why? I had it all written down ready to press send but didn't.
I was going to tell him something like..no, i don't hate you, I'm just trying to protect myself from getting hurt, thanks for calling for my bday" I was also thinking of addigsomething like..i've given you so much in the past 8 months....
today he hasn't written.
HOnestly I was happy he called but sad because he JUST called.
I'd like to think he'd send flowers..or SOMETHING other than a call. When he kept calling last night I felt kind of good that he was being persistent. After a minute I realized it's not about me. He's tryng to make himself feel good. He doesn' do anything for ME.
Does he even deserve to get the text I've got ready waiting to send?
It bothers me taht..today is MY day and i'm trying to make HIM feel better...send or don't send!!! if so,what would you say?
I could either be very formal. Or break down and make him king again.

Follow Ups

The poor thing... Kat 20:53:11 3/11/2010 (10)
- Re: The poor thing... nita 22:18:59 3/11/2010 (9)
  - happy birthday tbh 05:25:01 3/12/2010 (0)
  - In the morning ... alegreme 04:53:49 3/12/2010 (3)
    - Re: In the morning ... REWRITE alegreme 05:10:48 3/12/2010 (2)
      - and again .. Gigiola 05:54:40 3/12/2010 (0)
      - don't think so ... Gigiola 05:51:46 3/12/2010 (0)
  - You should go to bed tonight... Kat 22:29:19 3/11/2010 (3)
    - Agreed! Folie 23:18:40 3/11/2010 (2)
      - HAPPY BIRTHDAY NITA!!!! sunshine62 23:26:11 3/11/2010 (1)
        
        Re: HAPPY BIRTHDAY NITA!!!! fidani 15:16:55 3/22/2010 (0)
or ... Gigiola 20:17:20 3/11/2010 (0)

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> Last night MM called me (it was already thursday his time) > to wish me a happy birthday. I didn't answer his call because.. > I just didn't feel up to talking w/ him. I listened to his voicemail, which was nice. Half an hour later he txtd happy bday > also. I wasn't going to reply, but out of just being human I said thank you. Half an hour later he calls. 3 times in a row. > I couldn't answer. I REALLY wanted to. So while his ringtone was going off one after another, I was crying my eyes out because this situation sucks. Wanted to answer so bad but at the same time I knew after we hung up I'd feel like sh*t. > Half an hour later I get a text > hey says " I know you hate me, I undrstand but I just wanted to be the first to tell you happy bday, but it's fine, you're having a goodtime with your friends, thanks for making me sad" > I still have not responded. I was ready to do so this morning. but why? I had it all written down ready to press send but didn't. > I was going to tell him something like..no, i don't hate you, I'm just trying to protect myself from getting hurt, thanks for calling for my bday" I was also thinking of addigsomething like..i've given you so much in the past 8 months.... > today he hasn't written. > HOnestly I was happy he called but sad because he JUST called. > I'd like to think he'd send flowers..or SOMETHING other than a call. When he kept calling last night I felt kind of good that he was being persistent. After a minute I realized it's not about me. He's tryng to make himself feel good. He doesn' do anything for ME. > Does he even deserve to get the text I've got ready waiting to send? > It bothers me taht..today is MY day and i'm trying to make HIM feel better...send or don't send!!! if so,what would you say? > I could either be very formal. Or break down and make him king again.