Reunion

I too like most of the most of women did not plan to have an affair with a married man.

He and I started to talk as friends at our 20 year reunion. We did not know each other during High School. We were in different circles. We had a nice time that night. Everyone was into the mood of being with each other. He had a party at his house after the reunion. I didn't not go. It was like it was meant for me not to know where he lived and who was his wife. One day shy of two weeks after the reunion we ran into a baseball game. He had his son. I had my daughter. He sat with us for a while. He asked for my number and it was history after that. I think we just wanted something sexual. But, we were both very intriged about each other and how we had school stories to talk about.

We had so many incidents that had so much meaning behind it. His son and I have the same Birthday. We grew closer. The sex wasn't much of an issue. We actually didn't have sex until 2 weeks later after talking with one another. When we did finally sleep together, it was dynamite! After that, it was hard to separate our emotional feelings from our sexual feelings.

We went on with the affair for about0 months. We survived Holidays and weekends. When he finally was able to spend a few nights over with me, he had wondered if he shouldn't just tell his wife. I was against it. I was comfortable with our situation. It was emotional, but I knew that once he made any changes, it would not be the same between us. He told her. She kicked him out of the house. He stayed with me and my daughter for a week, then moved back home for a week, then came back to be with me for almost 2 months. We (his wife, him and I) were very adult about the whole situation. But, when it came down to her having to make changes in her life, she just broke down to him and asked him how he could of done this to her and their marriage of0 years, after all that's she's been is been a good wife and mother to their son. Two weeks ago today, he went back.

He has asked me to forgive him and to understand that he "needs" to make it work at home. It is not the best feeling to hear this come from the man you love. But, I know that I will need to move on and respect what he is trying to do.

I am sad that he went back to her, knowing that his love for me is much greater that his love for his wife. But, a love for his wife will never be replaced if there are children involved and so many nice "past" memories together. I do not want to live in someone else's shadow.

I would rather live as a memory. A happy memory. I know that I will always have a place in his heart. No matter how deep.