Dearest

My story is not like others. I was fooling around at a social web and found a guy to email to. We flirted with life and stuff and I just wanted him for company really. Then I found we had a lot in common and it was hard for me to s emailing. Then we met. I also thought it was nothing, but then it became too close to my heart. We dicussed having sex but we are both married. I do not know why he causes me to feel the way he does but I do not feel this good with anyone. I say I dont need him but I do. We never kissed or made love yet but I want him in my life. My husband is a tease. He takes me places and then flirts with women right in front of me.

I am getting tired of this. I know I deserve better but at this point no one wants me full time. Its only for this or that. I cry alot and feel sorry for myself. The only way to get even is to have alot of friends and make myself attractive to whoever wants to take me serious. I am tired of throwing myself at men when they really like to play foolish games but hate it when they loose. I want to feel out who really wants to be with me.