Ellen

I had ended a6 year marriage with a very abusive man and it had been two years since I had been with any man, or even felt alive in any way. I had been suicidal and hospitalized twice at the end of my marriage because of depression over the loss of my marriage. I met "him" while being involved with the local theater and was instantly attracted to him, in a way that to this day I do not understand. It was a physical as well as a spiritual attraction.

When I found out that he was married it did not change the fact that I wanted to be with him. I do not want to be his wife and am very happy as the other woman. I am not isolated from his family. I know his wife and we do things together and she just does not know my real involvement with her husband. I do things with his children, take them to movies, circuses, and such. I babysit so that they can have week-ends away to be alone without the children. I love him unconditionally, he came with a family, so I love his family.

It is very confusing at times and I have to accept a place in his life that comes after his family, his career, his community involvement, and everyone else that lives in this state. I have become a very independent woman with my own home and career and cherish my aloneness. I think that is why I became involved with this married man. I DO NOT WANT HIM TO LEAVE HIS WIFE. I would not hurt his children for anything in the world, they are wonderful. Thank you for listening. There are not a lot of places in the world that I can speak of this.