Lover

I met my MM at a club, believe it or not called Heaven and to this day I tell everyone that we met in Heaven and God meant for us to be together.But let start at the beginning. I had just ended a seven year relationship with my boyfriend. I found out that he had cheated on me with another woman. My sister and I had tickets to go a play, since we were already dressed we decided to go out. Ending up at you guessed it Heaven.

My sister and I had just entered and I saw my ex with the other woman. At first I wanted to run but I thought why give him the satisfaction. My MM said that he was headed to the bathroom when he glanced over and saw me standing under a beam of light. He told me that he fell in love with me at that very moment. He was afraid to even go to the bathroom because he was afraid he wouldn't find me again.

Needless to say, he approached me and asked me to dance. Boy, could this guy move. He was there for a bachelor party with about2 guys and he was the designated driver also the man to keep all the wedding rings. Yes, he did confess to me that he was a MM. The man took my breathe away. We danced the night away. As the night was winding down I got depressed about going home. I felt so comfortable with this man it was strange. He asked me for my number. What should I do? I contemplated for a moment but gave him only my work number just in case it should fall into the W hands.

I talked about him the whole way home. I was so depressed to find out that he was M. I kept saying, "why does he have to be M?" I just felt that connection that I didn't even have with my boyfriend. Then I kept saying that he wouldn't call so I gave up all possibilities of hearing from him again.

Three weeks later to my amazement he called me. My heart was pounding a mile a minute. I felt that hot flash you get when your nervous. I felt like I was tongue tied but it was just a basic conversation that started the ball rolling. He called everyday and we both felt like we had known each other for years. I found out that he was 29 (I'm 35) and had been married1 years. He had 2 children (5 and 8). He told me that he hadn't married his W until his first child was 2. He said that he wanted to do the right thing by his children and that she pursued him and the he had LEARN to love her. But for me that he fell in love with me the moment he saw me. He did everything imaginable to win me over. He knew that I had just come out of a relationship and that I was gun-shy. He said that we could be good friends but we both knew that was a lie.H

e wrote letters, met my family, friends, went to my church, came to my work. Went out with me OPENLY. I was so nervous about everything. But he was confident because his feelings were true. I believed everything that he said because I had been denied these things from my past relationship. He gave me that yearning of love and fulfilling that childhood wish that all women have. To meet the man of our dreams and I felt in my heart that he definitely was the one.

We carried on this way for 3 months. Finally, and inevitably we made love. It was a totally different experience from my boyfriend. He was so gentle, loving and caring. This was a man that was only into pleasing ME. His pleasure came from me being pleased. Words can't even describe how my whole body tingled from his devouring of me, he touched my soul. We came together like neither of us had before.

Knowing how he felt, he openly went home late, became distance with her, ran up a cell bill that total $1600, called me from his home. She did find out about me. We had a 3-hour conversation one night with all of us on the phone. He openly admitted to her that he loved me, she about lost her mind.

They separated in October. He started divorce proceedings in December. Moved back home to try counseling and openly admitted to everyone that he loved me and at that the start of the new year he would be with me. I was shocked that he had admitted to everyone within range that he loved me and didn't love her anymore. She really didn't accept this. So, January he called to have the papers served.

That's when I thought things were going my way until I found out the filing fee wasn't paid so no papers had been served. He moved back home 4 weeks ago and the papers are still waiting to be served (I believe him about the divorce papers because I have the copies and talked to his attorney). She has put such a guilt trip on him about the kids that he hasn't done anything yet. He is dragging his feet and I told him as much.

So, I'm sitting back trying to be understanding but losing hope as each day goes by. He says be patient and everything will be fine. Before I felt strong now I don't know. I need some resolution to this. I've put myself out there and want to start my life with him. We are so interwined with things, I mean we actually started a life together. Joint accouts, planning vacation, still having clothes at the apartment. But I believe God has us meet people in our lives for a reason.

I want to thank each of you for your letters of inspiration. I was feeling really down until I read these letters and they let me see how others in my similar situation feel. It was really good reading and help me understand somethings that I might do to better understand what is going on with myself and this relationship.

I know everyone says that your wrong but how can something that feels so right be so wrong? I believe in my heart that he still will do the right thing by me. June will be year together and he promised that he would do right by me and I am putting my trust in him that he will.

I think we should all keep our heads up because each of you met these people in your lives for a reason you didn't plan it, it just happened. I'll just pray and let God lead my course, I met him in Heaven how can you go wrong with that!