The Girlfriend

This is the first time for me to "speak out" regarding my long-lasting affair.

I have had an affair for 9+ years with a married-professional man and I too am married with three children!

It started while working together. Although we had a break in our relationship for 2+ years (in which time I built a family through adoption), we have seemed to float back together and it has been one year again. When the ic comes up on our future, and his intentions, I never get a straight answer, he tells me he is in a boring-dull marriage and cannot imagine being there any longer but is. I feel like I am being scheduled in when we get together (which is not very often) and our time is limited. She calls, he runs! I suppose that I know what the outcome will be however it is very painful to accept that, I am truly in love with him and find myself wanting to beleive him. Am I alone in this?

I need some support from people who have "been there-done that". thank you for allowing me to vent!