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I've known him for the past 2 years. I have worked quite closely with him over the past 6 months and a few months ago we bacame quite good friends, despite the fact he is many years older than I am. He began sending me funny email cards all the time and we spent hours chatting after work. We also started going to private room in chat rooms so we could chat for hours without being disturbed. Then we began having drinks together secretly. One night, when we were in his car after a night drive he began holding my hand. It felt so natural, so right.

The hours sped by so quickly and I was late so I had to go. Then he kissed me. After that night, that one kiss, we began sneaking kisses in empty rooms at work, working late together. He bought me jewlery for my birthday and wrote me poetry. Eventually it evolved to a motel room and I don't regret it, neither does he. We've been together about 2 months now. We both feel very guilty for his wife. We both know it is wrong but we don't want to s it. We've both told each other we love each other, but we also realise we are in a hopeless situation. I feel very alone knowing that he loves me and yet he also loves his wife . I mean, he must love her, but I don't understand how he can love me too. But I truely believe that he does. I think the reason we work is because we are always completely honest, we trust each other and we're best friends. The biggest thing we both believe is that no matter what happens we will always keep our friendship. It is a terrible situation to love someone who you can't ever have. Someone you can only see in secret. It's horrible.Back to Stories